Quotidian Quest

Dark Dream

Category: personal
#dream

I was in a dark place. It was a cage with other people and a couple lights above us.

I could hear people walking across and i knew who they were.

They were being judged and they were going to heaven.


and then a man came down dressed in black and drinking a cup of coffee. he asked "why should you live?" as he sipped his drink and sat down.

"how can i find my pashion," i yelled.

he almost spat out his coffee...

he readjusted himself in the chair and repeated the question as if i hadnt said anyhting.

i felt like i was doomed and helpless. that nothing i said or did would change anything...

i feeling that im too familiar with...

and then the alarm went off.

The Nightmare

Category: personal
#personal #dream

Today, I woke up from a nightmare. I dreamed that I was unable to move forward with my life. That there was some list out there that kept track of my every mistake and that it prevented me from getting a raise at my current job or to move to another job. There was a guy who let me look at the list and it was filled with minute and cryptic offenses. The whole time I stood there shocked because there wasn't a way to defend myself... it was all on the paper that I wasn't supposed to see in the first place. What do I do? How can this be fair? Some of the things were so small as to seems inconsequential. Some of them had nothing to do with who I was, what I had done in the past or how I had changed over the years.

Waking up, I realized that I was looking at the fear I've of just letting my past mistakes dictate who I am and denying myself of the possibility of being better.